Emotions

Apparently I don't have them. Or so I've been told. Either that or it's very important for me to not show that I have emotions. I'm not entirely sure I can agree with that. Granted, I don't ever get angry and I really don't let people see me cry, but when I feel happy I want the whole world to know. I smile like a fool, I laugh loudly and I embrace the mood. So while I might seem fairly neutral most of the time you will know when I'm truly happy.

On a side note; While two years ago I really didn't smile a whole lot I now find myself grinning constantly, which is a nice change. I actually like my life and myself at the moment and that feels so incredibly good. I really don't plan to go back to where I was during high school, I'm enjoying myself too much to do that.

So while I might not have that many strong negative emotions anymore I honestly feel like I've had my fair share by now. I don't really have any reason to feel anger or sadness right now, everything is working out so perfectly, in a way I couldn't even have imagined. I'm at the complete opposite end of the scale compared to back then. I do have emotions. I feel happy when talking to my friends, I feel content when hanging out with my family and I feel "the butterflies" when I think of the person I like. I don't see why I should feel the negatives when they're not even there.

I'll work on my issues as they come up and I'll enjoy this happiness that I feel for as long as it lasts. Hopefully it will never end.